*Memories*

Does anyone else have days where it just seems like today you were not supposed to get out of bed because nothing is going like it usually does? Lately it has been occuring a lot and I'm not sure why. I think a lot of it has to do with being here at school alone unless my new very good friend is here, Ericka. I don't know where I was hiding all year to just have really gotten to know her the last semester and she is a blessing to have. Yesterday we had so much fun we spent the whole day together, painted her new room, got nails done, made dinner than cookies for our new favorite neighbor. We have so much in common yet so different, she is the new friend I need in my life, thank you Jesus!!

But anyway I was just thinking of important people in my life that I do not take time out of the day to say thank you or that I love them. Don't get me wrong there is more than a couple but the ones I going to talk about are my dad and my grandma and the late but remembered grandpa.
Oh my am I a "Daddy's Girl" or what. I have always been and always will be. Lately we have grown together more and I love it. We just have this special bond that I wish with all my heart every daughter and dad could experience. Thank you daddy for always believing in me and never giving up on any of my dreams. You have inspired me to never give up and encourage those around me. I love you! I will never forget our weekly roadtrips to Raber's or to get donuts at Donut Hill, those are precious memories I will never forget even though I complained all the time about them ha!! Thanks to Hannah I now have a song dedicated to you on how thankful I really am towards you.

"Butterfly Fly Away" Miley Cyrus

You tuck me in,Turn out the light

Kept me safe and sound at night

Little girls depend on things like that

Brush my teeth and comp my hair

had to drive me everywhere

you were always there when I looked back

And when I couldn't sleep at night

Scare things wouldn't turn out right

you would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who you'll be

can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might

Don't you worry hold on tight

I promise you there will come a day

Butterfly Fly AwayButterfly Fly Away

Flap your wing now you cant stayTake those dreams and make them all come trueButterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)We been waiting for this dayAll along and know just what to do

Butterfly,

Butterfly,

Butterfly,

Butterfly Fly Away

Another important person in my life is my grandma, she doesn't realize just how much she has inspired me to be the girl I am today. My grandma helped raise me, she experienced my firsts as a toddler, my first car, my first date, my proms and graduates and hope one day my wedding. I am happy to have such a wonderful lady in my life. Everyday we know one of us will make the phone call to see how each other are. I visit her every chance I get when I go home or stop in for that quick snack or potty break before work. Sometimes she will even make me some fast supper or favorite dessert if I give her a heads up!! I love her so much. I do not tell her enough just how much she has helped me become the young woman I am today but thank you grandma. As I was thinking of grandma I thought of Kellie Picklers song, "My Angel" even though that is about her grandma no longer being around it describes our relationship. Here is my favorite verse from the song,

You were like my mother

You were my best friend

You were everything I want to be

And all the good inside of me

There's never been

Never been another

That loved me like you did

My grandmother, my angel

My angel

Lastly my beloved and amazing grandpa. How do I miss him, it has been since November 2005. He was a father, grandpa and friend to many people. He had a positive outlook on life even through the final days before his stroke. I will never forget going into the hospital room the last time to say goodbye or kissing you the last time. I wish you could have met Madison you would love her, and Waylon his dad is always telling me how I had such a wonderful grandpa and all his times he talked or seen you how happy you were. It is so funny they actually bought my grandpa old work van and I have fought long and hard to not sell it but the time has come where the "Work Van" is no longer going to be around=( I will never forget going to pick that up in Bloomington and you taking me to Steak n Shake that day. I love you so much grandpa, you are missed and loved by many.

Home Sweet Home

Do you ever feel like you just belong somewhere other than where you currently are? Well over the last year my family decided it was time for change. A change was needed and helpful until the day came we no longer felt anything was happening with this change. My family decided after about 18 years it was time to leave our Church and begin seeking where God wanted us, he decided Antioch Christian Church in Washington. What an amazing, uplifting church it is just was not for me at all. I was not getting much out of it almost like a drag on a weekly basis, and how sad it is to think that way but I did not feel I belonged there. So after attending Antioch for about a year or little more one day we decided we would try our new church-THANK YOU JESUS for making us go that Sunday. That Sunday was amazing, worship was breathtaking, the sermon spoke right to my heart and I could feel God's presence again. After deep considerations we decided to keep trying it and just see where God takes us. Well, this past Sunday after a wonderful message given by Chris Miller about Grace my mom walked to the front to Richard and broke down. I knew the moment she stood this is where I could call home again. Richard was very accepting and happy for our families decision and I hope everyone else in the congregation was as welcoming. Our family all came up to be prayed for and asked anyone who was willing to help our family through this to come to, it was beatiful to see all our "old" friends join us. I finally feel like I am home. Home Sweet Home.

Well I officially have only seven more days of class of my sophomore year. How exciting!! I am so glad I have the love and support around me on them difficult days when I feel like I would not suceed in the teacher environment but however I believe God would not have put me in the Special/Elementary major if he did not feel I was capable. To those who have encouraged me over the last two years, thank you so much.

Another important event is approaching soon...... In approxiamently 47 days my Haiti Mission Team will be boarding the plane and leaving for a week to serve in Haiti. How exciting! I just keep thinking how all my mission trips have went and been breath taking but I truely believe this one is going to rock because God has put me with a team so amazing and fun it is going to be one spiritual week serving our God. Thanks also to all those who have contributed and supported me both by prayers and money, it shows there are good people out in this messed up world! I love you all.

Last week Ashley Sarah and I got all country-fied and cowgirly and headed to Evansville for a AWESOME concert. Taylor Swift Fearless Tour 2009 opening night! Even though I caused us to get lost not on purpose just because I wasn't paying attention and drove right by Roberts Stadium-don't ask me how. And with Ashley's scary driving at times I'm suprised me made it-I mean we only blew about 1 or 2 red lights, changed lanes a couple times without looking but WHO CARES. We had a blast!! We loved every minute of it*

She did the waterfall, can you believe it?

Before the concert started!!

We Love You, Taylor*!

I started my new job last Friday night at Bucktale Lodge in Washington. It is the old Dogwood that was at Glendale just with a new name! I am a waitress and host. Well last night was my first time EVER waitressing and with only about 1 or 2 mistakes I finally think I got the hang of it, however it was a Monday night who knows if I can keep up on like a Friday or Saturday lol!!

My baby boy is no longer a little baby but growing into something so addorable who couldn't love him! Marley is now almost 5 months old and loving every minute of it. Everyone thinks I baby him to much, or treat him more like a child than a dog but hey he likes it!!

Mr. Marley at 5 months !!