One Year Later.....

Have you ever looked back on the previous years and wonder why some things happened or why other things didn’t happen instead? Well on June 2, 2009 is one of the days I wish wouldn’t have occurred. A former graduate at North Daviess fought the battle of leukemia through her junior and senior year until she couldn’t fight any longer. On June 2 Shay Elyssa Fischer had passed to go be with her Lord and Savior.

It was a long hard process for Shay and surrounding family and friends, we knew the day was coming we just was not prepared to deal with another classmates death. As we helped raise money and go on random visits to Riley Children’s Hospital we continued to grow closer as a class because the last classmate was taken without any warning, Rebecca Arnold-Ellis.


Shay was a fighter that was not willing to give up until the last couple months before her death. Shay was diagnosed with leukemia in the spring of 2007. She was missed greatly during the months she was gone from school, lucky her in a way to be able to miss school and not deal with the senior year drama. She unfortunately had to miss our senior year prom but the people that meant the most to her decided to take a little mini prom the day after to visit her. Her date Daniel Worford went and took her beautiful flowers, the nurses even set up a special room with decorations and music for the fellow friends to dance around and enjoy the atmosphere. Shay was blessed she got to wear her beautiful prom dress, got her hair done and even took professional pictures to remember the day. Shay got to walk through graduation ceremony with us as a class. It was such a happy time as a class to sit down and remember the times we shared together the good and the bad. As I sit here to write this blog entry my heart hurts.

My heart hurts for many reasons, one I never told Shay how much of an inspiration she was to me or others, I would randomly text her and she would be so full of life and joy even in the pain her cancer was causing. What a blessing it was to have her in my life for the short time she was allowed. Another reason no one but God knew when her final day was going to be and for that I am blessed but in a way sadden because no one got to say their good byes but maybe that was what God thought Shay could handle and the people around her. Personally saying good bye for the last time is a difficult thing to do whereas the person being taken is very difficult but you don’t have the time where you know she/he is not going to make it to live the next couple hours.
Over the last year a lot of smiles, a lot of laughs and a lot of tears have been shed in the moments when Shay is brought up into conversation. Shay truly was an inspiration to have in your life; she inspired those that met her just once or the ones who weren’t so lucky to ever meet her.

Her mom had set up a sight for people to read kind of like BlogSpot but CaringBridge it was the neatest things, we could write comments, look at pictures, read what Shay was doing that day. Shelley kept us updated on every possible way or the frequent text messages we would get saying what she had accomplished that particular day. Shelley is a wonderful person and realizes now why Shay was the way she was- beautiful, kind, loving and most important God loving.
Shay you are greatly missed by many and loved by all. You were a blessing and I am so glad I can say I will see you again!





Shay Elyssa Fischer





Blessings do occur in the lives of many on a day-to-day basis and I am so glad they do. The Senior Class of 2007 has three wonderful students that will never be forgotten. Who would have thought by the age of 20 you would have lost one classmate let alone three. It has been a hard couple years for us but in many ways it has helped us realize we need to live for the day because who knows when our last is coming. Thank you Jesus for showing our class you are real and you do know our futures and when it will end.


Another important person in the life of so many people is little Andon Knepp. As I was walking through the cemetery at Berea I noticed his grave and my heart went out to Ryan Chelsa and Brycen and for the family around them. I pray God is with you and take care of your family. I pray that through this difficult time you can find healing and love through the people around you. I love you!
Andon Joseph Knepp

*Memories*

Does anyone else have days where it just seems like today you were not supposed to get out of bed because nothing is going like it usually does? Lately it has been occuring a lot and I'm not sure why. I think a lot of it has to do with being here at school alone unless my new very good friend is here, Ericka. I don't know where I was hiding all year to just have really gotten to know her the last semester and she is a blessing to have. Yesterday we had so much fun we spent the whole day together, painted her new room, got nails done, made dinner than cookies for our new favorite neighbor. We have so much in common yet so different, she is the new friend I need in my life, thank you Jesus!!
But anyway I was just thinking of important people in my life that I do not take time out of the day to say thank you or that I love them. Don't get me wrong there is more than a couple but the ones I going to talk about are my dad and my grandma and the late but remembered grandpa.
Oh my am I a "Daddy's Girl" or what. I have always been and always will be. Lately we have grown together more and I love it. We just have this special bond that I wish with all my heart every daughter and dad could experience. Thank you daddy for always believing in me and never giving up on any of my dreams. You have inspired me to never give up and encourage those around me. I love you! I will never forget our weekly roadtrips to Raber's or to get donuts at Donut Hill, those are precious memories I will never forget even though I complained all the time about them ha!! Thanks to Hannah I now have a song dedicated to you on how thankful I really am towards you.

"Butterfly Fly Away" Miley Cyrus

You tuck me in,Turn out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that
Brush my teeth and comp my hair
had to drive me everywhere
you were always there when I looked back

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scare things wouldn't turn out right
you would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who you'll be
can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly Fly AwayButterfly Fly Away
Flap your wing now you cant stayTake those dreams and make them all come trueButterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)We been waiting for this dayAll along and know just what to do

Butterfly,
Butterfly,
Butterfly,
Butterfly Fly Away


Another important person in my life is my grandma, she doesn't realize just how much she has inspired me to be the girl I am today. My grandma helped raise me, she experienced my firsts as a toddler, my first car, my first date, my proms and graduates and hope one day my wedding. I am happy to have such a wonderful lady in my life. Everyday we know one of us will make the phone call to see how each other are. I visit her every chance I get when I go home or stop in for that quick snack or potty break before work. Sometimes she will even make me some fast supper or favorite dessert if I give her a heads up!! I love her so much. I do not tell her enough just how much she has helped me become the young woman I am today but thank you grandma. As I was thinking of grandma I thought of Kellie Picklers song, "My Angel" even though that is about her grandma no longer being around it describes our relationship. Here is my favorite verse from the song,
You were like my mother
You were my best friend
You were everything I want to be
And all the good inside of me
There's never been
Never been another
That loved me like you did
My grandmother, my angel
My angel

Lastly my beloved and amazing grandpa. How do I miss him, it has been since November 2005. He was a father, grandpa and friend to many people. He had a positive outlook on life even through the final days before his stroke. I will never forget going into the hospital room the last time to say goodbye or kissing you the last time. I wish you could have met Madison you would love her, and Waylon his dad is always telling me how I had such a wonderful grandpa and all his times he talked or seen you how happy you were. It is so funny they actually bought my grandpa old work van and I have fought long and hard to not sell it but the time has come where the "Work Van" is no longer going to be around=( I will never forget going to pick that up in Bloomington and you taking me to Steak n Shake that day. I love you so much grandpa, you are missed and loved by many.